lowkey

loverz, hello.

Wouldn’t you like to know all the fun i had this past week. Well, not a lot of it. Kind of boring, kinda lame. But can it really be all that boring in a place like Amsterdam? I mean yeah it can, but i dont let it.

So let me tell you about the girls. We had an amazing week last week. Full of love and understanding.. can ya beileve it? Me and three dutch kiddos being able to ~lowkey~ understand one another. I really had probably the happiest weeks of my life last week. It just consisted of me being with myself and doing what pleased me and it really helped that the girls were able to understand me. I keep saying the word understand, and i dont think thats the right word but they get me and i can kinda get them.

 

Its gonna sound boring to you but i mostly sat around last week and didnt do much. I did a lot of netflix time and got mad because i cant find a way to watch Game of Thrones in the netherlands. And not because i am obsessed but because i want to start watching it. I keep getting referred to as Sansa Stark and i wanna see what she does to make people think of me. lol narcissistic much? But yeah lots of netflix and canal walking. I was trying to be by the canals as much as a could all week. So therefore lots of picnics! I really have found my love for music and being able to “moodchange” with the beats. I have always loved listening but now I feel weird without some type of beat going on.

One problem i keep running into is the weather. As it gets nicer, the clothing stays the same. Everyone wears jeans and turtlenecks. which im all there for but like dont they get hot? its like 70 degrees. So i dont ever know what to wear, and i dont have anything i can be comfortable in without feeling like i’m either dying of heat or naked. So my mom was very nice and helped me out with ordering some new clothes! so Shoutout to my mom. Love you.

Now onto this Easter weekend. I had the whole house to myself. The family went to Fleurs mothers house which is by a beach. (Which reminds me that i need to go to a beach…? why havent i?). I had long nights with my thoughts and it was really refreshing. I feel like even though im alone here i havent had much time to really understand what my mind is thinking and i got that time. Lots of confusion but also lots of healing.

I just love all my friends back home and know they all love me so even if i dont have support in person i have it with me all the time. It humbles me knowing how many people are rooting for me and want me to succeed/ grow in all this. I also have a weird passion and ive been thinking about this for a while but, a youtube channel. This has been something ive wanted for a while and now that i have time, i really could start it. I want too. What do you think? I dont know what i would talk about but i just know i have something to offer.

Easter was byfar one of the most weirdest days ive had in a looonngg time. It didnt feel like Easter and i didnt want to go to a Church service at a random church so i had my mom facetime me during her service at the church my grandparents have been going to for such a long time. It was really sweet for me to feel like i was with my family. I miss them a whole lot and i miss Rose too (cant forget baby deer either). But i am excited to see where this week takes me. Hopefully a fun one too.

OOOOhhhh cannot stress this enough. Kae Kae, if you’re reading this, i cant wait to show you around the good ole dam.

xoxo m