hello loverz,
so heres the tea. *start sippin’* I was gone mentally so i couldnt bring mself to write what i was doing because i was doing nothing and felt like i was stuck in this awful place.
I am not saying im out of the weird spot but i am working through it better. I have been in more contact with my family and friends and it has helped me cope. I can feel alone and literally be alone but i know i got my hoes around me (hoes meaning my family and friends if that wasnt clear).
So i get in these “im so lonley and im so bored” stages and im literally pissed at myself because thats so stupid. I am in Amsterdam for crying out loud. But i feel like im so comfortable here that its uncomfortable and now i treat it like a home not a vacation. Which makes it 10x harder not having friends around me all the time. I have a great friend, Juliette, but we live “far” away from eachother in the dam terms. its only a 10 min bike ride but it makes it that much harder to try and hang out during the week days due to our kiddos schedules.
So if you wanna know what im thinking and maybe if you are bored and want a new task to do, help me! do some research on some of my brainstorming ideas. I have lots of off time but not enough money to be going to cafes and bars all the time so i need some other things to fll the voilds with spending less money.
1. volunteer work, that maybe i could get a little extra cash 2. starting online school (fashion merchandising) so really finishing my degree. 3. get really good at editing videos and actually start a Youtube channel (so id need to find an editing class bc i have no ideo how to do it).
so those are my ideas but maybe you guys have a little more? please help me out! im just in this weird spot. lol
xoxo m
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