throw back tuesday

hi luvs,

Hi, i know i missed last week but i wasnt feeling inspired, i couldve wrote about my London trip which i will, just not today either. I was going too until i got a text from my brother saying he was reminiscing about life and he sent me two pictures: one of my house (from google maps) with a white Expedition in the driveway and one of a blockbuster that was not even a ten minute walk from my house.

Lol so anyways it got me thinking about just everything from back then, cause it wouldve been when i was 8 years old and it caught me off gaurd like holy crap… 8 year old me was going into 3rd grade, so innocent. No phone, no/ limited internet time… legit not caring about anything. I was probably still going to the nurses every other day saying i didnt feel good to try and go home lol.

well i just wanted to talk about what it made me think of in writing cause this is what this blag is all about, anything that comes across my mind.

It first made me thinking about what i was doing at 8, then what i thought id be doing by 20, and the what i am doing at 20. HAHAHHAHHAH like im pretty sure i wrote down like on those “where do you see yourself” things, that at 20 i saw myself in a long term relationship, one year from graduating college, and probably knowing what my job was gonna be. Lololoollll it made me laugh cause like obviosusly im not in arelationship, im not in college, and i have no idea what i wanna do for the rest of my life. 8 year old me didnt relaize that 20 was legit only 1/4 of my life time (idc if thats not perfect math im just saying it for the point). Well now at 20 years i understand that i dont need to know, i would like direction which i have found a little while taking this time abroad but yeah.

Well 8 year old me, i would tell her to keep on to her innocence as long as she could cause at 13 my life changed for real, for real and wouldnt ever be a normal kid again. To love my date nights (even though lame) with my dad, to spend those extra nights in the living room instead of my room, torealize how cool of a life you have when youre living it not looking back on it. Damn, this got me in the feels. It makes me really proud of how i was raised and how i took my life, even though i have a few actions i would take back, i mostly am like i am like wow, me at 8 probs didnt think she was gonna be this “cool” when i was young lol. i mean i wouldnt say im cool but im living more of a cool life than what i saw myself living haha.

Thats all for now, im getting too senti

xoxo m