Pushing the limits

hi there loves,

Its m back on the bullshit, writing about how i push some of my inner limits, making myself ultimatley feel anxious but proud that i did it.

First off, last week i signed up for ClassPass and im doing a two week trial, so im like done after friday i think, but holy cow i went to a cycle class (somewhat like soulcycle) and a hot yoga class. Both of which kicked my little ass to the end. In the cycle class i could not get my foot rythm together, like i had it but then the pedals were going to fast and i couldnt do the gear thing, it was just a bit messy but like i could feel my legs dying. I was so happy i did it though, like im really not one to workout because i have no motivation meaning ill do situps and then when i gt tired i just stop, lol. Next, i went to hot yoga, and boy that was such a weird experience. imgaine just kinda being warm, then a musty smell while moving your body with youre inhales and exhales and seeing like 15 people doing the smae motions, i mean its just like yoga but you sweat a lot more. & yeah after that i was livinnggg. It feels so good to push your body. But now my back hurts so im getting a massage.

The next thing i did to push myself is playing with makeup more, i dont really use makeup day to day now and i just really miss being able to experiment and you know do some cool eye looks for date parties and normal parties. So i did a look one night i had to watch the girls while they were sleeping.

I did a fun background with it cause it makes it a bit more interesting in the fact that its  not a bright eyelook. Also send me some eye loks that might look good on me!

The next limit is just being not awkward with people. And i have met 3 new people in the last 4-5 days. One girl from the AuPair agency im with, we had lunch and you know made her feel welcomed in the netherlands cause she just arrived. She was fun to talk with but also, i get so excited to meet these people then they turn out to be almost 30 and have weird, alternative, like ALTERNATIVE, up bringings and life choices and i just get disappointed. Cause like i shouldnt be picky and judge but also if i dont mesh, i dont mesh right? Then the next two are from a dating website 🙂 sorry mom… But nah they were fun dates. One we went to a 4DX showing of Angel has Fallen and it was such a weird experience. like the chairs turn/move and punch you and burst air and mist. Its just weird but also cool. And again like this guy was cool but idk if i want to see him again but idk why i wouldnt cause he was fun… like my brain just is like nahhh m, you dont need him. And the other dates was fun too, we went to a music thing in Museumplein, idk what it was but it was really fun convo flowed and he was chill. But yeah mostly after this week i relaized im more confident with a drink in me. Like i need one to just open up.

so yeah i pushed my inner limits and if you have suggestions that youd like to see me do, shout em out:)

xoxo, m